DREAMING

A RATHER STRANGE DREAM INDEED. WE HAD JUST MOVED OUT OF A HOUSE INTO ANOTHER AND I HAD HEARD THAT MY FILIPINA FRIENDS HAD MOVED IN TO THE OLD HOUSE. I WENT AROUND THERE TO SEE THEM BUT COULD NOT FIND THEM.
AS IT HAPPENS IN DREAMS I ALL OF A SUDDEN REALIZED THAT I WAS PREGNANT AND REMEMBER FEELING VERY EXCITED YET SCARED BECAUSE I WAS ALONE. I RANG A VERY GOOD FRIEND OF MINE ORLA TO LET HER KNOW AND TO ALSO ASK FOR ADVICE AS SHE HERSELF IS PREGNANT. I WAS HAVING A WONDERFULL CHAT WITH HER AND THEN BEFORE I KNEW IT I WAS GOING INTO LABOUR AND MY STOMACH WAS EXPANDING IN SOME REALLY WIERD ELASTIC WAYS. NO DOUBT ONE OF THE SHORTEST LABOURS IN HISTORY FOLLOWED AND THERE BEFORE ME WAS A NEW BORN BABY GIRL AND LIKE THERE WAS NOTHING ODD ABOUT IT ORLA ASKED ME IF I HAD THOUGHT OF A NAME, TO WHICH I REPLIED , WELL NOT REALLY.
I WAS LAYING IN BED READING EITHER A PAPER OR BOOK BEFORE THIS ALL HAPPENED AND WAS STILL HOLDING THE ARTICLE AND SAID TO ORLA THAT BELLE WOULD BE LOVELY AS IT WAS A SHORT VERSION OF SOMEONE I HAD BEEN READING ABOUT CALLED ANNABELLE. AS I WENT TO HOLD HER THE SCENE CHANGED AND MY BABY TURNED INTO A VERY AND I MEAN VERY SMALL BIRD AND YET IT DID NOT SEEM STRANGE TO ME. LIKE ANY PROUD MOTHER I WENT TO THE GROUP OF OLDER LADIES THAT I MUST HAVE KNOWN THAT WERE HUDDLED AROUND TALKING AND EXCLAIMED HOW WONDERFULL IT WAS TO BE A MOTHER. I RECIEVED A MIXED REACTION TO THIS NEWS AND ON PRODUCING MY VERY TINY BABY BIRD IN A JAR NO LESS THE REACTION BECAME EVEN MORE MIXED.
NONE OF THIS SEEMED TO FAZE ME SO I PROUDLY WALKED OFF WITH MY JAR OF BABY BIRD. THE NEXT PERSON I CAME ACROSS WAS MY FATHER AND WITH MUCH EXCITEMENT I SHOWED HIM MY NEW BABY BIRD. I HAD PRIOR TO THIS TAKEN THE BABY BIRD OUT OF THE JAR BUT WAS VERY AWARE OF IT'S FRAILTY AND THE CHANCE OF LOSING IT , SO KEPT IT IN THE JAR. DAD SEEMED HAPPY FOR ME BUT WAS INTENT ON REMOVING THE WINGED CHILD FROM THE JAR. WE WERE STANDING UNDER A HOUSE AND TO MY HORROR DAD BUNDDLED THE BIRDIE INTO HIS HANDS AND LAUNCHED MY BABY INTO THE AIR. IT FLEW TO THE OTHER END OF THIS UNDER HOUSE AREA AND IT SEEMED TO DISSAPEAR. I WAS SO SCARED AND NERVEOUS YET UNDERSTANDING OF DADS DESIRE TO TEACH IT TO FLY ON IT'S OWN. I RACED TO WHERE IT SEEMED TO DISSAPEAR AND TO MY DISMAY I COULD NOT FIND IT. MY WINGED CHILD HAD GONE AND AS I SEARCHED THE SPIDERS NESTS IN THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER OF THAT PLACE FOR MY CHILD, DAD AND THE DREAM DISOLVED AWAY.
Robyn Whittaker. 10/8/07.