HISTORY OF US.

TWO PAIRS TO THE SET, ONE IS EATEN .... ONE NOT YET.
RELATIONSHIPS BURN BRIGHTLY AT FIRST, SO BRIGHTLY THAT WHEN IT ENDED THEIRS IN ANOTHER DIMENSION BEGAN.
SOME WHERE IN TIME AND ONLY AN ECHO AWAY THEY DID FLEE THE BIG BREAK. TWO ECHOS OF SOULS STILL MADLY IN LOVE , DETERMINED TO CONSERVE AND PROTECT A LOVE THEY CAN NEVER AND DON'T WANT TO FORGET.
THEY SENSED THE IMPENDING PARTING OF WAYS AND DEVISED TO EXTRACT A FRACTION OF THEMSELVES AND TRAVEL TO A PARALLEL DIMENSION ESCAPE.
IN THIS NEW UNIVERSE THEY LIVE ON, THEY DO IN HAPPY EMBRACE.

THE OTHERS TRY MADLY TO RUN FROM AND UNDERSTAND WHY LOCKED IN PROXIMITY IS AN UNAVOIDABLE FATE.
FOREVER FEELING THE AFFECTS OF WHAT IS HAPPENING AND BEING EXPERIENCED BY THE RESONANCE OF THEMSELVES IN THAT ETHEREAL PLACE.
LOVE IS IN ITSELF A DRUG AND ONE FORM OPENED A DOORWAY TO OTHER WORLDS , A PLACE WHERE THE GREAT LOVES OF THE WORLD GO WHEN THE PASSION THREATENS TO DIE.
LOVERS IN OUR WORLD THINK IT JUST A COOLING OF THE FIRE AND THE ULTIMATE PARTING OF WAYS.

FOR SOME IT IS MERELY THE EFFECT OF LOVES ECHO PARTING FROM THEM WHEN MORTAL COIL THREATENS IT'S CALL, ABANDONING THIS WORLDS LOST REVERENCE OF LOVE ON LONG HAUL.
LISTEN VERY CAREFULLY YOU MIGHT HEAR THEM THROUGH WALLS, YOUR PAST LOVES ARE TALKING AND HAVING IT ALL... AND IF YOU LOOK INTO THEIR WINDOW YOU MAY DISCOVER THE DOOR.
IT WILL HAPPEN WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT, WHEN TIME BEGINS ITS FOLD... . AND WHEN IT DOES YOU WILL FEEL WHAT THEY FEEL AND FOR A TIME YOU WILL SENSE IT ONCE MORE. STRONGER AT FIRST, BUT THEN AS TIME IT BEGINS ITS SLIP, EACH DAY THEY MOVE IT FURTHER AWAY UNTIL YOU'VE LOST ALL OF IT'S GRIP.
ALWAYS ONE STEP AHEAD OF YOUR GAME, YOUR SIMILAR'S FAST THEY WILL RUN. RUNNING TILL JUST OUT OF YOUR REACH, AND YOUR LACK HAS NO EFFECT AT ALL.
FOR NOTHING YOU DO CAN HURT THEM NOW, IN THE LOVE FILLED SANCTUM OF KRAH.
SO MUCH CLOSER THAN YOU THINK IT IS, YET FURTHER THAN THE STARS.
SO REMEMBER BE CAREFUL WHEN TAKING THE FALL , BEWARE OF THE PURR PILL IT OPENS A DOOR.
IF LOVES WHAT YOUR FEELING BE SURE THAT IT'S TRUE, FOR IT'S YOU THAT'S LEFT YEARNING WHEN YOUR SPLIT IN TWO.

(c) Robyn Whittaker. 2007. (One mystical theory i guess)

ACCEPTANCE

THERE IS SOMETHING VERY ROMANTIC ABOUT SURRENDER,
ACCEPTANCE IS BEAUTIFUL,
RESOLVED TO YOUR OWN INNER TRUTHS,
REALIZING THAT THE THINGS YOU DO TO SAVE IT, THOUGH SEEMING TO FAIL...
HAVE ACTUALLY HELPED YOU THROUGH.
LETTING GO OF THOSE NOT MEANT FOR YOU AND THE DESIRES OF DAYS LONG PAST.
NO LONGER SURRENDER YOUR HEART,
TO THOSE WHO'D HAVE YOU WEAK.
DAZED AND CONFUSED , THEY WOULD LEAVE YOU WITH NO TONGUE TO SPEAK.
FLY LIKE A BIRD ON PHOENIX WING,
GLIDE FROM ALL FEARS AND SING.
FOR THE TRUTH IS ALWAYS YOUR RESCUER DEAR,
THE SONG SOUNDS LIKE MOURNFUL CRY,
ALTHOUGH AT FIRST SEEMS SORROWFUL,
IT'S BEAUTY WILL FILL OUR SKY.
GO FORTH ON MORROW AND RECLAIM YOUR CROWN,
YOU'RE THE GIVER THAT WAS FORETOLD.
THAT BRINGS HIM LOVE OF YESTERYEAR, TIL THE DAY YOU BOTH GROW OLD.
FOR WHEN HE SEES YOU HE WILL KNOW IT'S TRUE,
AND ALL THE OLD FAKERS,
WILL WISH THEY HAD YOU.

Copyright (c) Robyn Whittaker. 2007.

SINGULARITY

NO ONE KNOWS THE DEPRAVITY OF SINGULARITY,
UNTIL LIFE CHALLENGES YOU WITH IT ON A REGULAR BASIS.
ONE SINGULAR SENSATION COUPLED WITH THE BEARER OF IT'S OWN REFLECTION.
NOT ALWAYS JUST THE EYES LOOKING BACK IN THE MIRROR,
BUT ALSO SOMETIMES THE ONES WHO SEEM A PERFECT FIT.
YOU LATER DISCOVER THAT THE GLOVE HAS AND EXTRA FINGER AND YOUR FAVOURITE PARASOL HAS LOST ALL IT'S GRIP.
BUT DON'T YOU WASTE YOUR WORRIES AND FEAR,
THOUGH THE CLOUDS THEY SEEM TO GATHER,
THERE WILL BE NO RAIN FALL ON YOUR PARADE,
LET'S KEEP YOURSELF TOGETHER.
STRAIGHTEN YOUR BACK AND KEEP UP YOUR CHIN AND WIPE YOUR DROWNING EYES.
THINK NOT OF WHAT YOU THINK YOU'VE LOST.
DON'T QUESTION THEM WITH WHYS..???
YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE IS YOU MY DEAR.
AND IT'S A LOVE THAT MONEY CAN'T BUY.

Copyright (C) Robyn Whittaker. 2007.

TIME MASTERS

TIME IS THE MASTER OF EVERY SOUL AND MOLECULE BELONGING TO IT'S MATTER.
WITHOUT IT THERE IS NO MEANING , AND WITH IT WE ALL SHALL BE EXTINGUISHED AND TRANSFORMED FROM MORTAL FLESH TO OTHER DIMENTIONS.
TO FLOAT AWAY AND PERMIATE SPACE AND TIME. OR IF THE LESSONS WE ARE TAUGHT , ARE NOT LEARNT, PASSED AND PUT TO INTO PRACTICE.... THEN WE WILL YET AGAIN COLLECT IN FORM UNTIL WE PASS THIS TEST.

PEACE IS SOMETHING OF WHICH MANY ASPIRE TO BUT FEW OF US REACH.
LEARN TO BE ONE WITH YOURSELF AND OTHERS.

REMEMBERING TO ONLY TEACH OTHERS BY EXAMPLE, SO THEY TOO MAY SEE THE VIRTUES OF A LIFE BEST TRAVELLED.

IN THE CONDUITS OF SPACE AND TIME WE ARE REBORN AGAIN AND AGAIN. HAVE COMPASSION FOR THOSE YOUNG OF SOUL.
JUST LIKE A SILLY YOUNG DOG THEY TOO NEED LOVE AND GUIDENCE TO ACHIEVE MATURED SOUL COUNT. WE ARE ALL HERE TO GAIN HIGHER GROUND.
NOT TO BE ABOVE ONE ANOTHER , INSTEAD TO REACH A PLACE THAT IS MEANT FOR US , OUR THOUGHTS SOME IN UNISON CREATING A BETTER PLACE.

LEAVING BEHIND DESIRES FOR OUT THERE , WE WILL GO INSIDE AND CONNECT WITH THE EYE OF ONE MIND.
AND TAKEN IN NEW DIRECTION, THE EARTH WILL BE RESTORED BY NEW LEADERS AND WE WILL BE FINALLY THE MASTERS OF OUR TIME.

(c) Robyn Whittaker. 2007.

What it feels like for a Tranny in 08.

Life can sometimes be a challenge for anyone on this planet, but Transgenderism turns the volume way up. This life journey for me has been interesting and challenging to say the least. If I had the choice to go back and do it differently I would tell them “No you can keep the change!”

With the luxury of 19 Tran’s years collecting behind me, it can be said with true conviction that this life journey is becoming easier day by day. When first deciding to transition from a boy at 17 to a girl at 18, I was unaware of just exactly what I was in for. In for a penny and in for a pound is an old saying, well after a few years it became obvious that I was in for a world of currencies. Almost like coming full circle, in the beginning it felt easy and effortless, every thing was exciting and new. Youth was on my side and the imaginary bulletproof vest that appears to go with that vestige was worn with pride. Innocently skipping through the first few years, blissfully unaware of what was up ahead. One memory was that certain friend’s would say I was very brave living as a transgender and each time I would tell them that it was easy and I was lucky to be so feminine. Rarely was I challenged as to my gender, and living and working as a complete facsimile of the real thing was effortless. Working as a deli assistant then a bar maid at the Brunswick, life was the dream I desired. Back then confidence would come and go like the tide, but eventually certain negative experiences created a downward draft and within 2yrs; drugs, prostitution, and depression were taking my life in a completely different direction. I experienced discrimination for the first time in 1991 when some guy I knew decided to take offence at my life choice and I lost my job at the hotel. I tried to brush it off and work elsewhere but my amour began to fail and the chinks in it started to add up. I spent approximately the next 10 years lost and confused but eventually with much soul searching, we can all find our way back home.

Life is very simple if we think it is simple, what we think life is it is. I thought I was a woman and so it became real for me, well my version anyway. I have experienced the highs and lows and highs again of being a transgender. Never would I swap one moment for what some call a normal life. It has been the most fantastic fun, heartbreaking experience and the gifts of wisdom and insight have made those low times seem like a blip on the radar.

Being a tranny is what you make it. It is not a journey for the faint of heart, but if this is the life you lead, try to be very grateful because the challenges of this life test can bring many rewards. There were times I could not even leave my home for an unjustified fear that people would be able to tell that I was once a boy. The mind can play some awful tricks if you let it, but try to remember that you are in control of your mind and everyone has a right to a happy fulfilled life.

Getting up each morning for me is wonderful now and Trans-Pride is a feeling i emit from my core on a daily basis. Our day is coming and we shall be seen for the strong resilient, insightful changelings that we are. That is what it feels like for me as a Tranny in 08.

Copyright © Robyn Whittaker 2008.