08.08.08 Very special day in history.

Today is as i heard from Friend that i know i can rely on as a reliable source, the luckiest day in this century and what ever you wish for will come true. I would say that you would have to keep your focus on that goal wish and remember the feelings you had today, and let them exist in a special region of your brain to be stimulated when ever you think of it. Keep yourself on the ball and remember that you are the end result of your thoughts and dreams, the dreams you wish to make real, and they will come true if you believe in them. At this time in history i am watching the opening ceremony of the Olympic games, and though i know that some have their political differences against this country, i feel we must try to see this symbolism from a global scale. It is if seen as a positive, an opportunity for change even for the issue fronts that are out of alignment for those in the opposition. The spot light on this country hosting this event will in some way i believe create an opportunity for change, brought on by the need to be the best on show and may stimulate minds to produce in future the changes that are needed. This always encourages humans to be the best they can be and in the process helps us to be better than we were. I feel it is a conscious and subconscious raising of the bar, that will eventually bring the globe slowly but surely to a future the protestants against this regime wish for us. Tibet will take it's rightful place in time, and all will eventually right itself, and Tibet will realize and own fully the dream of autonomy. I agree with some of these opposing views, and do understand that some may see this as pie in the sky wishful thinking without any proactive substance. This is my point of view and i am entitled to it. I would rather lean towards the positive and encourage minds to focus on what we do want and not what we don't want, because invariably whether you believe it or not when you focus on the negative things you are not happy with or don't want, you tend to draw more of this negative energy to you and the situation. I will say that this opening event is truly incredible and magical and i will never regret turning on and locking in to the wonder that is the human race. It was so futuristic and surreal and took me to a place that i enjoyed going in my mind, and brought me much hope that we can come together for the pursuit of excellence and encourage peace. Good or bad we will one day be as one and all barriers will fade into insignificance. It may not happen in my lifetime, but it will happen one day, and if we believe it will, it indeed will. Today i connected with Gus on a level that i won't forget, and that is between him and i, and i thank him for being the person he is and for being a part of my life. Tonight is a historical moment for me, I had a fantastic day and only realised it was that magic day around 5pm. I suddenly came to realise why i was so charged up and why certain experiences that took place during the day had happened. I am convinced it is also special for all those who believe that we can prevail and survive our long drawn out adversities against each other. I am sure that the magic that is being produced by the ancient spirits conjured by this date, will be a momentous hope and will propel the people of this little blue island to heal the wounds that we have inflicted on this planet we call earth. Thank you to my close friends and family for being a part of this wondrous date in time and history, and for being a part of my life. I am most grate full for the treasures that i have been given by knowing them, and for us sharing and being in the here and now. The best part for me is that major parts of this event were so focused on the art of writing and calligraphy, created by the earthling hand to express this beautifully fluid and evolving human condition called life. This date in history is an echo to the ancients and the futures to come and they will hear this echo for all time memoriam. xxx Banksy.

Copyright (c) Robyn Whittaker 2008.

Caro Mio! Gus and Mommie Dearest.

Happy to report that i have indeed recovered from my weekend sailing trip to the other side and apart from having a little bit of time management kaos, my week has been fairly average yet busy. I am doing a photo shoot tomorrow for a classic movie night that i compere for a gorgeous quaint little 30s art deco cafe in Wooloongabba here in Brisvegas called Caro Mio. Go here if you want to check it out. ( http://www.caromiocafe.com/) I fell in love with this cafe the first time i went there with a friend of mine Daniel. I had hopes of maybe having a Clayton's engagement party there one day for Gus and i, owing to the fact that not long after meeting Gus i was standing in my kitchen sort of half joking about the fact that i was never going to get married and i made some comment about how i would never get to walk down the isle, let alone pull out my imaginary wedding dress from my wardrobe and starch it for my big day. A friend of mine Sherrin was up from Townsville at the time and she had a bit of a giggle about it and when Gus said straight up "I'll marry you" she heartily encouraged him. I sort of said oh yes ok sure not being serious but he, while only joking pursued the idea for longer then i thought he would have, and after a short time of this i sort of didn't know what to say and being a bit imbarressed i agreed and said ok lets do it. Both of us as far as i knew and i am sure he would agree had no intention of seriously going through with it but the idea grew until we started calling our selves the oddest couple. ( A play on that 60s sitcom about two guys living together "The Odd Couple") He was your fairly typically cute gay guy type and i was a feminine Transgendered lady with extras and i am not referring to that in any Hollywood movie terms. We stayed together as friends for months, and it eventually developed much further than even we expected. We went about our lives "under the radar" as we jokingly called it as a suedo straight couple and at times we even fooled ourselves, we grew very close and in a strange sort of cute way it developed into a lovely accidental match of two weirdly compatible people. Unfortunately time changes us and takes us where we need to go and alas my partner in time, best friend and soul mate has gone out to live near Mt Isa for a while to pursue his chosen career. As it turned out we never had our pretend engagement at Caro Mio after all. We are still close friends and i hope that one day in the future we can go camping, shopping and have a laugh playing the oddest couple once again. What did come out of that visit to Caro Mio, was that i reconnected with Luke Quadrelli (the owner) that i have known on and off for about 17 years and i started compering the movie nights for him. I hope to be getting further involved with his cafe with stand up comedy and other themed nights in the near future. Today Synthetic and I will be photo shooting for an article that will be in the next Q-News (Gay Rag here in Brissy) about the movie nights. The story will be about the Cafe and its fab classic movie nights and we will be dressing up as Joan Crawford and Christina Crawford to promote Mommy Dearest which will be playing on the 23rd of August. Cost is $40 which includes a scrumptious three course meal, Popcorn, interval quiz prizes and smiles from the lovely staff. (Thomas, Adrian,Rachael and Luke.) I will post the article and pics when they come out. xxx Banksy.

Dream from Wed night 30/07/08

I experienced a very vivid dream last night and it was very rewarding yet strangely weird as well.

I was at a party of a friend of mine Chris Sayer and my lovely Gus was there and amazingly so was his sister who i think is a gorgeous person. At one stage it did not seem to be Chris's place but instead it seemed to be Gus's parents home and i was getting on with his sister so well that it was like we were best friends. It was in the back of my mind that i loved that we were getting on as i thought it would only make Gus and i closer if his family liked me. It suddenly occurred to me that she had no clue that i was transgender and it did at times make me nervous. Gus's family as far as i knew did not know about my past and my best impression was all i wanted to give. Suddenly i was back amongst Chris and our friends talking, dancing and doing our usual. 3 people i had known but must of neglected saw me and we chatted and caught up, laughed and as i do i worked the room like a social butterfly on round up! When i circled the room and came backed past these 3 people that seemed to be in the middle of the room. I looked at them staring at me and realized they were none too impressed and so i asked what was wrong. They each in their turn berated me for neglecting them and being a snob. I rejected these claims and heartily told them i was sorry and told them that i knew alot of people and i was expected and i needed to talk to others. Chris seemed unimpressed too at this stage and i followed him after strongly informing the 3 of them of thier unfair judgement. I told Chris i was leaving and he seemed miffed but polite and said good night. As dreams go i was suddenly in a kitchen with Gus and his sister and she was so sweet and i was even dancing with her at one stage. She was cooking and chatting and at one point we were doing the whole men are arseholes talk that us girls have, laughing and going on, i saw Gus watching us and he was fine and seemed happy with what he saw but it occurred to me that she did not know about me and when she did find out she may feel betrayed, she had connected with me as a woman and may feel silly about our light hearted anti male chat when she discovered my past and somehow feel tricked. Suddenly no one was in the house or unit but her and the back door was open and her cat came to up the stairs, stopped half way and started crying, i think it wanted to come in. I looked at the flimsy screen door and asked if it was locked to which she replied no and all at once i felt unsafe. I asked her to lock up the door as i sensed someone out side, she agreed and the dream ended.

( I love such vivid dreams and believe whole heartily with the notion that they are our minds way of processing issues and experiences, they are also a message from those who guide you and are a sort of G.P.S to help you with future choices and directions. I dreamt this on the night of my fathers birthday and he has been passed on now for 2 yrs.)

GUSON ( poem for Gus)

FOR A MOMENT IN TIME LIFE WAS AS IF PERFECTED BY YOUR GIFT.
OF COMPANY NEAR, A WATCHFUL EYE OVER ME.
THAT SENSE OF STYLE IS YOURS ALL YOUR OWN.

ADMIRING THIS GENTLE ONE QUITE REFINED,
IS THE SPORT OF THESE SOUL FILLED EYES.

WHEN TO TAKE AS A GIVEN WHEN GIVER’S GONE TAKEN AWAY.

ROSE COLOURED FEELINGS HELD CLOSE TO ONE HEARTS GRASP OF HOPE.

THE DOE EYED LAMBS TO SLAUGHTER,
THEY KNOW NOT WHAT END VISITS NEW DAY.

KNOWINGLY STILL WALK T’WARD NIGHTS TIGHT ROPE,
THOUGHTS OF LOVES END GAME IN MINDS BEGIN TO PLAY.

THE FOLLY OF FOOLS RUSHING IN WITHOUT ABILITIES TO MEND,
BROKEN ARROW FLUNG OFF COURSE BY CUPIDS BOW.

THE ODDEST OF ALL BREAK FROM COURAGE FILLED RUN,
LOVES LIMBS BREAK AND BEND.

A SPARKLE IN EYE BRINGS GLIMER FROM SOUL,
AND ALL I KNOW IS TO STILL CALL HIM FRIEND.

TAKES TWO TO MAN THE TANGO,
TWO TO MAN LOVES DANCE.
THE SPIN OFFS ARE WHAT WE PRAY FOR.
AND KNOWING SOME WHERE IN TIME THERE’S STILL A CHANCE.

COPYRIGHT © ROBYN WHITTAKER 2007.