NECESSARY TORMENTS

In the wrong hands, what a terrible curse love can seem,
Strong grip squeezes love force from the heart of the strongest man,
It can break a woman in two.

In the quest to protect soft centres,
Opportunities lost, passing unopened door.

One who comes to teach us,
Knowledge needed.
Jealousy’s worst words spoken,
Infecting the mind with its thoughts.

Blind haze, feelings that destroy from inside,
Slowly losing the one I gave you,
Enslaved, whipped by necessary torments,
Student on punishing course.

A mirror sent,
Enlighten reflection insight.
Looking glass opens the window,
Redemption lets in light.

Heard you were missing in battle,
The news sending bullet to heart.
Soldiers who die for no reason,
Souls lost without guide for the path.

Perhaps I loved for wrong reasons,
Maybe it’s the journey not the end.
Thank you for gifts of good wisdom,
Pleasure I now gain from pain.
Grateful for memories spoken,
Embedded pearls, unlocked.
Liberate past into future,
Deliverance in speaking your name.

Copyright © Robyn Whittaker, 2009.

LOVE'S LOST ACQUAINTANCE

MEMORY OF LOVE LEFT TO ROT.

YOU, THE ONE WHOM I TRUSTED,
BEATING MY SOUL FROM INSIDE.
TORN HEART FROM VEIN AND AORTA,
BLOOD SOAKED AND COVERED WITH FLIES.

GIVE US YOUR FAMINE-FILLED CHILDREN,
FATTEN THEM FULL WITH FALSE LOVE.
DELIVER LOST SOULS THAT ARE TAKEN,
GUIDANCE THAT NEVER WILL COME.
DEVASTATION, ALL THAT IS LEFT HERE,
BURY THE BONES AND THE HIDE.
TOMBSTONE EULOGY SPOKEN,
ENGRAVED WORDS WILL COVER YOUR LIES.

WHY MY LOVE MADE YOU ANGRY,
NEEDING TO DESTROY WHAT WAS GAINED.
BURY THE ONE THAT STILL HAUNTS YOU,
YOUR VICTORY IN FUTILITY'S GAME.
SHUT OUT THE ONE WHO HAS SPOKEN,
DANCE TO YOUR DEATH WITH DENIAL.
WHEREVER YOU GO YOU WILL HEAR ME,
AN ECHO OF WHAT WE ONCE HAD.

Copyright (c) Robyn Whittaker. 2009.

THE OUTCOMES

TORN FROM INSIDE, YOUR BLOOD SOAKED THEFT,
OF ALL THAT BEATS IN CHEST.

EMPTY CHASM LEAVES BODY BEREFT,
EYES SOAKED WET,
WIDOWS TO SOULS LEFT DYING.
IGNORING CARNAGE, SLAIN CORPSE DISCARDED,
KARMA’S THE ENEMY NOT FRIEND.

WHEN RHYTHM HAS ENDED,
DEATH FINDS RELEASE FROM YOUR GRIP,
NO HOPE FOR SURGEON TO MEND.

GONE ALL THE MORNING KISSED DAISIES,
WAIT A WHILE ALLOWS YOU THE SLIP.
SUMMER BURNS HOT WITH THE OUTCOMES.

Copyright (c) Robyn Whittaker. 2008.

BEAUTIFUL ANGEL

HER SOUL BURNS BRIGHTER THAN THE SUN,
THROUGH OLD EXTERIOR HER GLOW TRICKS EYES TO SEE YOUTHFUL ONE.
THE MAGIC OF THE GENTLE LIFE GIVER TOUCHES EVERY HEART,
AND THOUGH SHE SACRIFICED PART HER OWN,
JOY IS WHAT I SEE WHEN SHE'S WATCHING ME.

BEAUTIFUL IN HER DAY AND MAGNIFICENT IN HER AGE,
STILL STIRRING MEN'S HEARTS, TO THOUGHTS OF ROMANTIC FORAY.
NONE SO COMFORTING THAN THE VOICE OF REASONING TAMED,
BROUGHT FORTH FOR CONSOLATION,
TO HELP ME MAKE MY WAY.
SHE GUIDES ME IN MY DARKNESS AND HELPS ME SEE THE LIGHT,
A HELPING HAND FOR MY INNER LOST CHILD,
SHE ALWAYS MAKES IT RIGHT.

AND WHEN SEAS MAKE CALM AGAIN,
AND WATERS SAFE TO PLAY.
LAUGHTER FILLS CONVERSATIONS LONG CALL,
AND THE DISTANCE FALLS AWAY.

I WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I'M GONE,
GONE FROM MORTAL SHORE.
AND SEARCH FOR YOUR GUIDE LIGHT,
IN THE OCEANS OF TIME.
AND TOGETHER WE WILL BE ONCE MORE.

FOREVER GRATEFUL TO MY GIVER OF LIFE,
YOU'VE CARRIED ME AND GUIDED MY WAY.
THROUGH PAIN AND SEPARATION AND MOMENTS OF GRIEF,
YOU ALWAYS KNOW JUST WHAT TO SAY.

MY BEAUTIFUL MOTHER,
SO GLAD YOU ARE MINE.
I WILL LOVE YOU THROUGH DISTANCE,
AND FOREVER LOVE YOU THROUGH TIME.

Copyright (c) Robyn Whittaker. 2007.

LAUGH OUT LOUD!!!!!!!

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

ALL IS WELL IN MY WORLD!!!

I AM SAFE IN THE UNIVERSE AND ALL LIFE LOVES

AND SUPPORTS ME!!!

ALL IS WELL AND I AM SAFE!

ALL THOSE WHO ARE BITTER WITH TWIST,

HAVE A GOOD LAUGH OUT LOUD AND SAY THIS THREE TIMES A DAY,

AND ALL WILL BE OK!!! LOL!!!

(And thank the universe for a sense of humour, it will be a good friend that will help you through the hard times and be a buffer to those who mean to hurt.)

LAURA FORM

THE BEAUTY OF OUR MOST CHERISHED LAURA FORM,
IS HOW SWEETLY SHE SINGS OF OUR TRUTH.
HER SONG IS THE STORY OF EQUALITY,
AND THE FREEDOMS OF ALL FUTURE YOUTH.

FREEDOM TO DO WHAT THE OTHERS DO,
A CHOICE MOST TAKE FOR GRANTED.
BASIC HUMAN ENTITLEMENTS,
VOID OF POLITICAL SEMANTICS.
TO MARRY AND PROTECT THE ONE’S WE LOVE,
ENSURING THAT THEIR TAKEN CARE OF.
RECOGNISING ALL AS PART OF HUMANITY,
WILL BRING US TOGETHER AS ONE.

LABOUR GENTLY TILL RAINBOWS END,
WATERING SEED TILL IT GROWS.
GOLDEN TRUTH FOUND IN SONGS SWEET VOICE.
RESULTS IN THE BEGINNING FORTOLD.
DREAMS ONCE WISHED FIND REALITY,
AND A LOVE TO HAVE AND TO HOLD.

GRANT US THE VOICE OF OUR LAURA FORM,
SING US THE SONG WITH THREE CHEERS.
WITHOUT IT BELLS TOLL, NO RESONANCE,
AND IGNORANCE WILL ECHO FOR YEARS.

CHANGE MINDSET WITH NEW CHALLENGES,
ALLOWING MUCH GROWTH FROM INSIDE.
UNLOCKING THE GATE OF LOVES AVENUES,
VALIDATION WILL FILL US WITH PRIDE.


Copyright © Robyn Whittaker 2008.

CRITICAL READER LEAVES BARB ANON

WELL IT SEEMS SOMEONE IS CALLING MY MORALS INTO QUESTION ANONYMOUSLY FROM ONE OF THE BASHERS OR THE CREW. APPARENTLY I AM A JOKE OWING TO THE FACT I DID NOT RAISE THE MONEY NEEDED FOR ENTRY BY BASHERS ELECTING TO GO ON THIS PARTY ON WHEELS. (WHICH BY THE WAY YOU FOOL I WAS NOT EXPECTED TO CONTRIBUTE AS MY DONATION WAS MY TIME IN KIND ENTERTAINING THE LIKES OF YOU.) I WAS TAKEN ON AS ENTERTAINMENT, I DID NOT ASK TO GO ON THIS EXCURSION AND AS AN ENTERTAINER ON AN HOURLY BASES I WOULD HAVE CONTRIBUTED THE ENTRY FEE IF NOT MORE SO GO TO HELL! MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY HELPED ME RAISE $1050 IN 2 DAYS AS I WAS BROUGHT INTO THIS LATE, BUT MAYBE MONEY FROM MY COMMUNITY IS NOT AS WELCOME. IT SEEMS MY MORALS ARE SOMEWHAT LACKING BECAUSE I DID NOT ACKNOWLEDGE THE WORK THAT THEY ALL PUT INTO RAISING MONEY FOR CHILDREN, LIKE I SAID AND I WILL SAY IT AGAIN, RAISING MONEY FOR CHILDREN IS NOT AN EXCUSE TO TREAT PEOPLE WITHOUT RESPECT AND GO ON LIKE ANIMALS. I NEVER SAID EVERYONE WAS AT FAULT BUT OFFICIAL CREW SHOULD HAVE TAKEN CONTROL OF THE SITUATION AND ENSURED THAT ALL PEOPLE WERE TAKEN CARE OF. I DON'T KNOW WHAT PLANET THE PERSON WHO LEFT THE ANON COMMENT WAS FROM BUT THIS ONE REQUIRES US AT LEAST IN THIS COUNTRY TREAT ALL AUSTRALIAN CITIZENS FAIRLY AND WITH RESPECT AND WITHIN THE LAW. I DO NOT HAVE TO PUT UP WITH A GROUP OF PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY THOSE IN THE POWER STRUCTURE OF THIS EVENT, DISCRIMINATING AGAINST ME OR FACILITATING IT BY ALLOWING IT TO CONTINUE. NOTHING ON A CURRENT AFFAIR BROACHED THE TOPIC OF THE DISCRIMINATION I WENT THROUGH, DISCRIMINATION THAT WAS SPARKED ALL THANKS TO SOME RUMOUR ABOUT MY GENDER AND LET'S FACE IT IF IT WAS A RUMOUR THEN YOU CERTAINLY NEVER WORKED IT OUT CONCLUSIVELY AND THUS NEVER KNEW, WHICH I AM SURE REALLY PLAYED HAVOC WITH SOME OF YOUR MINDS. I AM A TRANSGENDER WOMAN AND I AM PROUD OF WHO I AM AND MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY ALSO RAISED MONEY FOR YOUR CAUSE BUT IT SEEMS PEOPLE LIKE ME ARE NOT WELCOME IN YOUR GROUP AND RIDICULE IS ALL THEY CAN HOPE FOR IF THEY DARE TRY AND CONTRIBUTE. DAMIAN THE CLOWN KNEW I WAS A TRANSGENDER FROM THE DAY I MET HIM, BUT HE MADE ME PROMISE THAT I DID NOT TELL ANY OF YOU AS HE THOUGHT YOU (THE BASHERS AND CREW) WOULD NOT HANDLE IT, IT SEEMS IN ALOT OF CASES HE WAS RIGHT, BIGOTRY IS STILL RIFE IN THIS COUNTRY. I AM NOT ASHAMED OF WHO I AM , IT WAS DAMIAN WHO ENCOURAGED ME TO HIDE MY TRANSGENDER STATUS. I HAVE BEEN LIVING AS A WOMAN FOR 19YRS AND THAT IS THE END OF IT, I AM A WOMAN AND THERE WAS NO WAY I WAS GOING TO HAVE GROWN MEN AND WOMEN LAUGHING AT ME AND CALLING ME A BLOKE AND TRYING TO GET ME TO ADMIT I WAS A MAN AS I AM CLEARLY NOT ONE THANK YOU! ALL THOSE WHO HAD A LAUGH AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, CAN GO AND JUMP AS FEMININITY AND IT'S APPRECIATION IS OBVIOUSLY A DYING ART WITH SOME OF YOU. I AM NOT SAYING ALL OF THE BASHERS WERE GUILTY OF DISCRIMINATION AND NEGATIVE BEHAVIOUR, BUT THOSE WHO DID SEE ME AS A TARGET FOR JOKES AND HILARITY SHOULD TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT THEMSELVES AS WHAT I EXPERIENCED MOST OF THE TIME WAS NOT FUN AND REALLY AMAZED ME THAT IT STILL WENT ON. IT PARTICULARLY SURPRISED ME THAT THE ONE'S RIDICULING ME HAD MORE REASON TO JOIN THE SIDE SHOW AS AN EXHIBIT! LASTLY I ENCOURAGE ALL CRITICAL NEW READERS TO KEEP LOGGING IN AND READING EVERYTHING, AS IT IS HARD TO FIND IGNORANCE WHEN YOU HAND IT AN EDUCATION.

The Variety Story!

THIS IS A VIDEO YOU CAN FIND ON YOUTUBE AND EXPLAINS HOW VARIETY CAME TO BE AND WHAT IT STANDS FOR, ESTABLISHED BY THEATRE PEOPLE THAT NO DOUBT CAME FROM VARIOUS PARTS OF OUR COMMUNITY- I AM SURE DISCRIMINATION WAS NOT A PART OF ANY OF THIER ORIGINAL AGENDA. I AM NOT TRYING TO RUIN VARIETY'S NAME, JUST TRYING TO ALERT THOSE WHO MISTREATED ME ON THE BASH AND DISCRIMINATED AGAISNT ME THAT THIS SORT OF BEHAVIOUR IS NOT RIGHT AND DOES NOT FIT WITH THE IDEALS OF THEATRE AND VARIETY.

AFTER ALL VARIETY IS THE SPICE OF LIFE.

WHY I HAVE NOT POSTED FOR A WHILE

WELL TIME AND THE UNIVERSE HAVE A FUNNY WAY OF PUTTING YOU IN DIFFERENT PLACES AND CREATING DIFFERENT EXPERIENCES FOR YOU TO GO THROUGH TO EITHER GAIN STRENGTH AND INSIGHT FROM THE EXPERIENCE OR CRUMBLE AND FAIL. I HAVE BEEN THROUGH QUITE THE ORDEAL OF LATE AND I AM DETERMINED TO PREVAIL IN THE FACE OF IGNORANCE AND VILE HUMAN BEHAVIOUR. RECENTLY I WAS INVITED TO DONATE MY TIME PERFORMING ON WHAT IS KNOWN AS THE VARIETY BASH AS A ROVING COMEDIAN ON A ROAD TRIP FROM TOWOOMBA TO BATHURT AND INITIALLY WAS DELIGHTED TO JOIN IN WITH WHAT I THOUGHT WERE WELL MEANING PEOPLE FRONTING A CHILDREN'S CHARITY. UNFORTUNATELY WHAT I ENCOUNTERED WAS A PACK OF FERAL PEOPLE ON A QUEST TO PARTY AND DRINK AND SEX THEMSELVES INTO A STUPOR, GOING FROM TOWN TO TOWN PATTING EACH OTHER ON THE BACK FOR APPEARING TO DO GOOD BY OUR COMMUNITY AND DISADVANTAGED AND DISABLED CHILDREN IN NEED. NOT ONLY DID I WITNESS HUMAN BEHAVIOURS THAT I THOUGHT HAD BEEN LONG EXTINGUISHED FROM CIVILISED GROUPS OF PEOPLE BUT ALSO HAD TO ENDURE DAYS OF EMOTIONAL ABUSE VIA CONSTANT INSULTS ABOUT MY GENDER WHEN A RUMOUR GOT OUT THAT IT MAY BE IN QUESTION. I WILL NOT DENY THAT I DID MEET SOME LOVELY AND SINCERELY GOOD PEOPLE ON THIS REVOLTING ROAD TRIP BUT EVEN THEY WATCHED ON AS I WAS DISCRIMINATED AGAINST AND DID NOTHING TO STOP THE ORGANISERS FROM ALLOWING THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME, SO IN MY MIND THEY ARE NO BETTER. I LEFT ON THE FOURTH DAY AND BELIEVE IF ANYONE ON THIS THING HAD ANY DECENCY THEY WOULD HAVE PUT A STOP TO THIS VILE DRUNKEN AND DISCRIMINATIVE BEHAVIOUR AND WOULD HAVE LEFT AS I DID IF A REASONABLE RESULT WAS NOT ACHIEVED. I HAD DAMIAN THE CLOWN RING ME THE OTHER DAY ON SATURDAY 18/10/08 A FULL 10 DAYS AFTER I LEFT THE BASH TO ASK ME WHAT WAS I DOING? (I HAVE GONE TO THE MEDIA , CHANNEL 9 A CURRENT AFFAIR ON AIR TONIGHT AT 6.30PM EASTERN STANDARD TIME) HE HAD SEEN THE ADVERTISEMENT ON THE SHOW AND FINALLY HE WAS CONCERNED AS TO HOW I WAS AND LET ME KNOW IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS THAT I WAS SELFISH AND WAS RUINING THE GOOD NAME OF VARIETY. WHAT A JOKE , I TOLD HIM THAT IT WAS NOT ME THAT WAS RUINING THEIR NAME IT WAS HIM AND ALL THE BINGE DRINKERS AND DISCRIMINATORS THAT WERE RUINING IT'S NAME AND THAT THEY SHOULD ALL TAKE A GOOD LOOK IN THE MIRROR AT THEMSELVES AS IT WAS THEIR BEHAVIOUR THAT WAS IN QUESTION NOT MINE. I HAD SENT HIM A TEXT THE DAY I LEFT WANTING A RESPONSE AS TO WHY I HAD BEEN PUT THROUGH SUCH AN ORDEAL AND WHY NO ONE HAD GIVEN A SHIT TO EVEN RING OR FIND OUT WHERE I WAS OR IF I WAS DEAD OR ANYTHING. I WAS SO DISGUSTED THAT WHEN I GOT HOME FROM A DAY LONG HORRIBLE JOURNEY FROM MUDGEE TO LITHGOW ON BUS AND THEN LITHGOW TO SYDNEY ON A DISGUSTING TRAIN AND THEN AFTER QANTAS PLANE BEING GROUNDED FOR ELECTRICAL FAULTS AND 2 HR DELAY I FINALLY GOT HOME TO BRISBANE EXHAUSTED AT AROUND 6.30PM. AFTER SLEEPING LIKE A LOG I AWOKE WITH THE RESOLVE TO GET JUSTICE VIA THE MEDIA FOR WHAT I HAD BEEN PUT THROUGH AND A CURRENT AFFAIR ARRIVED AT 11.00AM AND FILMED UNTIL AROUND 3.30PM AND THE REST IS HISTORY. AT THIS STAGE IT IS BEING AIRED TONIGHT AT 6.30 BUT WILL KEEP YOU UPDATED AS TO ANY CHANGES IN ITS SCHEDULING. I WILL BE POSTING THE FULL STORY WHEN EVER I HAVE THE CHANCE BUT UNTIL THEN I WILL ADD THE VIDEO OF WHAT VARIETY IS SUPPOSED TO STAND FOR AND WHERE IT BEGAN AND WHAT IT DOES FOR CHILDREN ALL OVER THE WORLD. IT IS JUST A SHAME THAT A FEW IRRESPONSIBLE PEOPLE HAVE HIJACKED THE CHARITY AS AN EXCUSE TO PARTY AND EXHIBIT REVOLTING BEHAVIOUR IN THE NAME OF CHARITY AND ALL THE WHILE PATTING EACH OTHER ON THE BACK FOR WHAT APPEARS TO BE GOOD DEEDS THEY CONGRATULATE THEMSELVES FOR DOING. DAMIAN THE CLOWN TOLD ME ON THE PHONE THAT THEY HAD RAISED 1.9 MILLION DOLLARS IF I HEARD CORRECTLY ON THIS PARTICULAR VARIETY BASH AND HOW DARE I DO THIS TO THE CHILDREN, TO WHICH I REPLIED THAT I WAS DOING NOTHING WRONG BY THE CHILDREN AND THAT IT WAS HIM AND HIS VILE GROUP OF YOBBO RIFF RAFF THAT WERE RUINING IT FOR THE CHILDREN AND I TOLD HIM THAT RAISING MONEY FOR DISABLED CHILDREN WAS NOT AN EXCUSE FOR BAD BEHAVIOUR AND BINGE DRINKING. THE WHOLE THING IS A DISGUSTING MESS AND I NEVER WANT TO EVER INVOLVE MYSELF WITH THESE SORTS OF PEOPLE EVER AGAIN. MORE TO COME....


Copyright (c) Robyn Whittaker. 2008

HISTORY OF US.

TWO PAIRS TO THE SET, ONE IS EATEN .... ONE NOT YET.
RELATIONSHIPS BURN BRIGHTLY AT FIRST, SO BRIGHTLY THAT WHEN IT ENDED THEIRS IN ANOTHER DIMENSION BEGAN.
SOME WHERE IN TIME AND ONLY AN ECHO AWAY THEY DID FLEE THE BIG BREAK. TWO ECHOS OF SOULS STILL MADLY IN LOVE , DETERMINED TO CONSERVE AND PROTECT A LOVE THEY CAN NEVER AND DON'T WANT TO FORGET.
THEY SENSED THE IMPENDING PARTING OF WAYS AND DEVISED TO EXTRACT A FRACTION OF THEMSELVES AND TRAVEL TO A PARALLEL DIMENSION ESCAPE.
IN THIS NEW UNIVERSE THEY LIVE ON, THEY DO IN HAPPY EMBRACE.

THE OTHERS TRY MADLY TO RUN FROM AND UNDERSTAND WHY LOCKED IN PROXIMITY IS AN UNAVOIDABLE FATE.
FOREVER FEELING THE AFFECTS OF WHAT IS HAPPENING AND BEING EXPERIENCED BY THE RESONANCE OF THEMSELVES IN THAT ETHEREAL PLACE.
LOVE IS IN ITSELF A DRUG AND ONE FORM OPENED A DOORWAY TO OTHER WORLDS , A PLACE WHERE THE GREAT LOVES OF THE WORLD GO WHEN THE PASSION THREATENS TO DIE.
LOVERS IN OUR WORLD THINK IT JUST A COOLING OF THE FIRE AND THE ULTIMATE PARTING OF WAYS.

FOR SOME IT IS MERELY THE EFFECT OF LOVES ECHO PARTING FROM THEM WHEN MORTAL COIL THREATENS IT'S CALL, ABANDONING THIS WORLDS LOST REVERENCE OF LOVE ON LONG HAUL.
LISTEN VERY CAREFULLY YOU MIGHT HEAR THEM THROUGH WALLS, YOUR PAST LOVES ARE TALKING AND HAVING IT ALL... AND IF YOU LOOK INTO THEIR WINDOW YOU MAY DISCOVER THE DOOR.
IT WILL HAPPEN WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT, WHEN TIME BEGINS ITS FOLD... . AND WHEN IT DOES YOU WILL FEEL WHAT THEY FEEL AND FOR A TIME YOU WILL SENSE IT ONCE MORE. STRONGER AT FIRST, BUT THEN AS TIME IT BEGINS ITS SLIP, EACH DAY THEY MOVE IT FURTHER AWAY UNTIL YOU'VE LOST ALL OF IT'S GRIP.
ALWAYS ONE STEP AHEAD OF YOUR GAME, YOUR SIMILAR'S FAST THEY WILL RUN. RUNNING TILL JUST OUT OF YOUR REACH, AND YOUR LACK HAS NO EFFECT AT ALL.
FOR NOTHING YOU DO CAN HURT THEM NOW, IN THE LOVE FILLED SANCTUM OF KRAH.
SO MUCH CLOSER THAN YOU THINK IT IS, YET FURTHER THAN THE STARS.
SO REMEMBER BE CAREFUL WHEN TAKING THE FALL , BEWARE OF THE PURR PILL IT OPENS A DOOR.
IF LOVES WHAT YOUR FEELING BE SURE THAT IT'S TRUE, FOR IT'S YOU THAT'S LEFT YEARNING WHEN YOUR SPLIT IN TWO.

(c) Robyn Whittaker. 2007. (One mystical theory i guess)

ACCEPTANCE

THERE IS SOMETHING VERY ROMANTIC ABOUT SURRENDER,
ACCEPTANCE IS BEAUTIFUL,
RESOLVED TO YOUR OWN INNER TRUTHS,
REALIZING THAT THE THINGS YOU DO TO SAVE IT, THOUGH SEEMING TO FAIL...
HAVE ACTUALLY HELPED YOU THROUGH.
LETTING GO OF THOSE NOT MEANT FOR YOU AND THE DESIRES OF DAYS LONG PAST.
NO LONGER SURRENDER YOUR HEART,
TO THOSE WHO'D HAVE YOU WEAK.
DAZED AND CONFUSED , THEY WOULD LEAVE YOU WITH NO TONGUE TO SPEAK.
FLY LIKE A BIRD ON PHOENIX WING,
GLIDE FROM ALL FEARS AND SING.
FOR THE TRUTH IS ALWAYS YOUR RESCUER DEAR,
THE SONG SOUNDS LIKE MOURNFUL CRY,
ALTHOUGH AT FIRST SEEMS SORROWFUL,
IT'S BEAUTY WILL FILL OUR SKY.
GO FORTH ON MORROW AND RECLAIM YOUR CROWN,
YOU'RE THE GIVER THAT WAS FORETOLD.
THAT BRINGS HIM LOVE OF YESTERYEAR, TIL THE DAY YOU BOTH GROW OLD.
FOR WHEN HE SEES YOU HE WILL KNOW IT'S TRUE,
AND ALL THE OLD FAKERS,
WILL WISH THEY HAD YOU.

Copyright (c) Robyn Whittaker. 2007.

SINGULARITY

NO ONE KNOWS THE DEPRAVITY OF SINGULARITY,
UNTIL LIFE CHALLENGES YOU WITH IT ON A REGULAR BASIS.
ONE SINGULAR SENSATION COUPLED WITH THE BEARER OF IT'S OWN REFLECTION.
NOT ALWAYS JUST THE EYES LOOKING BACK IN THE MIRROR,
BUT ALSO SOMETIMES THE ONES WHO SEEM A PERFECT FIT.
YOU LATER DISCOVER THAT THE GLOVE HAS AND EXTRA FINGER AND YOUR FAVOURITE PARASOL HAS LOST ALL IT'S GRIP.
BUT DON'T YOU WASTE YOUR WORRIES AND FEAR,
THOUGH THE CLOUDS THEY SEEM TO GATHER,
THERE WILL BE NO RAIN FALL ON YOUR PARADE,
LET'S KEEP YOURSELF TOGETHER.
STRAIGHTEN YOUR BACK AND KEEP UP YOUR CHIN AND WIPE YOUR DROWNING EYES.
THINK NOT OF WHAT YOU THINK YOU'VE LOST.
DON'T QUESTION THEM WITH WHYS..???
YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE IS YOU MY DEAR.
AND IT'S A LOVE THAT MONEY CAN'T BUY.

Copyright (C) Robyn Whittaker. 2007.

TIME MASTERS

TIME IS THE MASTER OF EVERY SOUL AND MOLECULE BELONGING TO IT'S MATTER.
WITHOUT IT THERE IS NO MEANING , AND WITH IT WE ALL SHALL BE EXTINGUISHED AND TRANSFORMED FROM MORTAL FLESH TO OTHER DIMENTIONS.
TO FLOAT AWAY AND PERMIATE SPACE AND TIME. OR IF THE LESSONS WE ARE TAUGHT , ARE NOT LEARNT, PASSED AND PUT TO INTO PRACTICE.... THEN WE WILL YET AGAIN COLLECT IN FORM UNTIL WE PASS THIS TEST.

PEACE IS SOMETHING OF WHICH MANY ASPIRE TO BUT FEW OF US REACH.
LEARN TO BE ONE WITH YOURSELF AND OTHERS.

REMEMBERING TO ONLY TEACH OTHERS BY EXAMPLE, SO THEY TOO MAY SEE THE VIRTUES OF A LIFE BEST TRAVELLED.

IN THE CONDUITS OF SPACE AND TIME WE ARE REBORN AGAIN AND AGAIN. HAVE COMPASSION FOR THOSE YOUNG OF SOUL.
JUST LIKE A SILLY YOUNG DOG THEY TOO NEED LOVE AND GUIDENCE TO ACHIEVE MATURED SOUL COUNT. WE ARE ALL HERE TO GAIN HIGHER GROUND.
NOT TO BE ABOVE ONE ANOTHER , INSTEAD TO REACH A PLACE THAT IS MEANT FOR US , OUR THOUGHTS SOME IN UNISON CREATING A BETTER PLACE.

LEAVING BEHIND DESIRES FOR OUT THERE , WE WILL GO INSIDE AND CONNECT WITH THE EYE OF ONE MIND.
AND TAKEN IN NEW DIRECTION, THE EARTH WILL BE RESTORED BY NEW LEADERS AND WE WILL BE FINALLY THE MASTERS OF OUR TIME.

(c) Robyn Whittaker. 2007.

What it feels like for a Tranny in 08.

Life can sometimes be a challenge for anyone on this planet, but Transgenderism turns the volume way up. This life journey for me has been interesting and challenging to say the least. If I had the choice to go back and do it differently I would tell them “No you can keep the change!”

With the luxury of 19 Tran’s years collecting behind me, it can be said with true conviction that this life journey is becoming easier day by day. When first deciding to transition from a boy at 17 to a girl at 18, I was unaware of just exactly what I was in for. In for a penny and in for a pound is an old saying, well after a few years it became obvious that I was in for a world of currencies. Almost like coming full circle, in the beginning it felt easy and effortless, every thing was exciting and new. Youth was on my side and the imaginary bulletproof vest that appears to go with that vestige was worn with pride. Innocently skipping through the first few years, blissfully unaware of what was up ahead. One memory was that certain friend’s would say I was very brave living as a transgender and each time I would tell them that it was easy and I was lucky to be so feminine. Rarely was I challenged as to my gender, and living and working as a complete facsimile of the real thing was effortless. Working as a deli assistant then a bar maid at the Brunswick, life was the dream I desired. Back then confidence would come and go like the tide, but eventually certain negative experiences created a downward draft and within 2yrs; drugs, prostitution, and depression were taking my life in a completely different direction. I experienced discrimination for the first time in 1991 when some guy I knew decided to take offence at my life choice and I lost my job at the hotel. I tried to brush it off and work elsewhere but my amour began to fail and the chinks in it started to add up. I spent approximately the next 10 years lost and confused but eventually with much soul searching, we can all find our way back home.

Life is very simple if we think it is simple, what we think life is it is. I thought I was a woman and so it became real for me, well my version anyway. I have experienced the highs and lows and highs again of being a transgender. Never would I swap one moment for what some call a normal life. It has been the most fantastic fun, heartbreaking experience and the gifts of wisdom and insight have made those low times seem like a blip on the radar.

Being a tranny is what you make it. It is not a journey for the faint of heart, but if this is the life you lead, try to be very grateful because the challenges of this life test can bring many rewards. There were times I could not even leave my home for an unjustified fear that people would be able to tell that I was once a boy. The mind can play some awful tricks if you let it, but try to remember that you are in control of your mind and everyone has a right to a happy fulfilled life.

Getting up each morning for me is wonderful now and Trans-Pride is a feeling i emit from my core on a daily basis. Our day is coming and we shall be seen for the strong resilient, insightful changelings that we are. That is what it feels like for me as a Tranny in 08.

Copyright © Robyn Whittaker 2008.

CIRCUS STARS

If i knew then what i should know now,
I wouldn't change a single second.
In this Circus of stars only clowns know how,
Fake smiles and promises turns our upside down.

BCause the clowns are the main attraction,
In the business we call show.
And their many captives surround them,
And cheer on as they choke.

Some are addicted to honeymoons,
sex and a drug called love.
A Spectator sport for some of us,
clinging to your false hope.
That the act was real,
And your words held some meaning,
To those in your front row.

Justified collateral damage,
Line the streets to your home.
The hearts and corpses you left behind,
Will burn your big top down.


Copyright (c) Robyn Whittaker. (c) 29,08,08.